only the remembrance remains.

JESUS! jesus, help me, I really do need you now, even though you're not the person almost every christian believes in.

JESUS, cut your hair! You would look much hotter.

No, he said, I want somebody who loves me like I am.

Good thing, I said, good thing. A bit naive, but nice.

I'll seek another brother on my own then, I said, and left.

He watched me with suspicious eyes. You do, he said. You really do.

Yes I am, I said, turned, and left him. JEEZZ, I'm so sorry Jesus, I should have listened to you.

But there I sat, guys talking about the american girl, who I turned out to be me.

There you are, I'm gonna die without a cigarette. Please just gimme a cigarrete, unless you don't want me to die. Drink more, he said, and I did.

That's when I lost my memory.